These are my thoughts for the evening.

I’ve noticed that a young white Frenchmen 22 years old has been pin-ointed as the latest executioner. As stupid because of lack of formation of the heart radical Islamists are, they parade and mock their white non-Arab converts by making thme the centers of attention, the ones to be caught, as in, making them teh ones who are executioners in videos that go viral; it’s always a Westerner. It’s not really to show that “we’re winning over your side too”. It’s really to just mock the stupidity of some Westerners.
why is it the men who fall for these thigns? It si because they seek some kind of power, due to a deprivation of their soul and heart, the intellect. If this is how they are socially, what is it that I can expect of the heterosexual sexual act? the reality is, is that everyone is love deprived, is deprived in general inside themselves to some degree. So, while most men dont become radical jihadists, many are deprived enough that the sexual act could be an act of exerting power over a woman, which, since he’s not some radical religious nut job, the woman wouldnt even notice and we in society allow this to pass. But what could i say about your typical america, born-again radical right-wing Christan pastor whose church roots do not require celibacy? And this is a danger to families, to their children Every person has varying degrees of need- each erspn has the same need inside, but at varying levels, as a mix of the hereditary, the intellect, etc.

I saw an article this evening on Facebook called: “Ask a Lesbian…”
It is all very similar in fact, to the concept of the question that is often asked: if gay women dont like men, why are some of them like, and why do some of them go with women who look more “masculine” and “act” that way (whatever that means). The truth is, you dont usually ever get the TRUE answer to this question. Now, many lesbians will post the same response, thus stating their reason is in fact the reason, but I am fairly certain my response will receive a critical reception of: “Well, that’s just your opinio,”, or, “Are you crazy?” Well, if we want truth, if we really want to engage in discussion that goes beyond “it’s just how i am and what i feel and what feels good”, the truth is that it is due to a varying degree of need. A “feminine” gay woman (and please know I hate using these black and white references; i use them only for the ease of conversing) may not want to be with a man, but she still may have desires for something that is “(falsely) seen as “stronger, more in control”. A more boyish, androgynous or butch woman, while not being transgendered, each have a varying degree of the need to be “manly” in order to “win the woman over” in the heterosexual fashion. The woman who is transgendered is the one with the ULTIMATE need. Back to my point though about those who aren’t, it is a need, at different levels, to in some way, be dominant over woman, their very own gender. I am a perfect example of this; I am androgynous. Deep down I have a need to dominate a woman physically, sexually, in some way. The androgynous woman for example, has the need to be seen and treated as a cute skinny “skater boy” for example, which is a nice cosy way of being that women never get to be and receive babying, empowering treatment as such from men. (Only the men receive this treatment, NEVER the woman, unless it’s a same-sex relationship!). So , the androgynous woman may have this need, while also being able to and needing to be free flowing such that her partner knows, “I am this way, but this doesn’t mean that sexually things are just one way, and we have completely rigid sexual roles in the sexual act, as though it’s the 1950s and mommy cooks and brings slippers to dad when he comes home from work). What I will add to this then, is that due to these needs that humans require, these being just one example, essentially the “feminine” gay woman wanting a “boyish” one is a level of “kink”, for kink is the result of disorder, due to love deprivation. Being “turned on” sexually by something a little “different” etc, this is what kink is. But, my way of being doesn’t have to be “different” if society could stop marginalizing us in a way that all the more so feeds this, feeds our need to be seen as male in some sense, and thus be babied by a woman, as a subconscious, and I really mean it, a subconscious “fuck you” to society. Society is very much centered disorderedly around the “woman”, the “Feminine” as the prize, and so you wonder why so many gay women, or rather, why amongst homosexuality, there is a “Spectrum”?

So my thoughts for this night are about human need, and how the reality is, there ARE answers to these lesbian questions and other things. The answers are not just someone’s opinion. I can be truthful in what i am and what i am after in feeling the way i am, and dressing the way i am, but NEVER to take advantage of the woman, not in the way that i feel many men do, though i’ll say, probably subconsiously on their part. I’ll give them that. Many in the gay community may feel offended by what I say, but I at least have the guts to reveal the truth that I know about myself, to reveal that there is something a little off with my desires pertaining to how I look and dress. It doesn’t mean that this isn’t naturally me. I just would love to feel and look and be as I am, without having the need or want to dominate a woman in any way.