you know? we live in such a culture of death, at almost every angle- this may seem obscure, but it seems to me that people are hell bent on lavishing praise on others, on anyone else but themselves, or at least on those they WANT to be like. for instance, as a musician i see this all the time. im a pianist obviously, and today for example, a fellow pianist came up to me and said ive always been impressed by guitarists; i dont know how they do it; the layout of the instrument is illogical etc. i reminded him that many guitarists come up to me and say the same thing to me about the piano and i always feel like, youre kidding me right? he then went on to say well people who acn do both, guitar and piano, blow my mind. i reminded him that most of the “guitarists” who come into my shop, or even teachers, they, lacking classical training especially, really just know things by rote, by memorization. they just pick things up and remember it. and so, to me it;s this constant putting down of one’s self. and why is this? it really is steeped in abortion, birth control, etc. birth control allowed people to have sex freely with one another, and turned it into a fun behavior to use to impress your partner with. and so, that has leaked and steeped into every other aspect. when it comes to scenarios like i described above regarding guitarists versus pianists, etc, the root of that is something sexual in nature too. either being impressed by it because you find the person sexually appealing, OR, you are impressed by it because you want to BE like that, in order to have people find you sexually appealing. it’s like the theory of why people become transgendered, because you want to identify with the aggressor, the one you saw who was aggressive sexually, when you as a child, accidently walked in on a heterosexual couple having sex, or you were raped, etc. basically, people have turned in on themselves and those who could be close friends to them, and it truly is rooted in the culture of death we live in, where we call something that is murder NOT murder, and choose who is fit to live and who isnt. or, we choose for ourselves that we arent fit to live. i like how when someone feels depressed you feel like you arent good enough, and so people need to reassure you, but if you are dying of a terminal illness, everyone supports you in the perspective that you arent fit to live.

“sexy” is a word that distorts beauty, the true “allure” of a person, and is a word that needs to be removed from our vernacular. the very word itself has helped to distort and confuse society on wat is important and what is of beauty, and what dignity is, etc. that’s why the concept of “sexy” will forever remain a surface concept that does nothing for us, and only leads to harm.