Reincarnation

I realize that reincarnation is unrealistic, goes against reality.  This is because we are not created for this world, which is why we need not fear death.  And, since we are not made for this world, the concept of reincarnation is null and void, for we would simply continue to be born into a world we are not meant for.

Oh, You &

I’m no stranger to stomping around the UN. Happy blessed birthday to Omi’s friend Elke! After a tour of the UN today, I was left perturbed and pondering. It brings back fun memories of being the child and grandchild of employees of the German Mission. I asked the tour guide what the UN does in scenarios such as Russia pummeling its gay population, given the international declaration of human rights. She told me since each country is still sovereign, the rights and ideas of the UN can only be used as suggestions, reminders, for the countries. The UN is basically a liberal federation, and the tour guides must gloss over and only explain the ideal that the UN is meant to be. I wonder why a nation should be allowed to join, when unwilling to go along with all the ideas of human rights it lays out. I also pondered, since the UN marks the Holocaust rather as its catalyst, and speaks of the Rwandan Genocide which occurred later, what have they to say about Turkey’s membership, and this growing knowledge of a pre-Holocaust genocide geared towards Armenians, inflicted by Turks. How do they face that? Is it of any consequence?Germany is not a permanent seated member of the UN, and that is to be expected since when the UN was founded, Germany was considered the vile and defeated enemy. You could expect years of fighting to become the 6th permanent member, amongst the ranks of the US, Russia, France, Great Britain, and China, but to no avail. But seriously, in this day and age, a federation of peace allowing perilous China still to be a permanent member, but not Deutschland?

The UN is a highly dressed up dream. But you can wonder what the world might be like if it didn’t exist.

Pretty Boy

Pretty boy

I like your nails

You make me nervous

You make me jump

 

I like the way you move

and strut your stuff

 

Pretty boy

I like your hair

Would love to run my fingers there

 

I like how you spoke

and where I could stick myself, you told

 

Pretty boy

I’m not enough

I know I’m not what you want

My eyes see you for but a minute

But eyes don’t lie when they see

a beautiful spirit

 

I’ve been rejected in this place, before

Eyes don’t lie

At least you made me to smile

Why Must We Say Goodbye?

To say goodbye can mean to cry

I cannot lie, I do regret

I’ve met you, but we never truly met; never did we truly connect

for there’s something blinding you to my eye

 

But we must say goodbye because still

there’s something binding you to my life

We’d rather not regret, we all seek to connect

I wait now for what comes next

 

Now that we have said goodbye

And yes it makes me cry

Even if this farewell is something good

I never know what I’ll do

 

But still, I can see you in my life

Poem

Everyone thinks I’m a weirdo
the family thinks i’m a weirdo
Natalie, why can’t you love me?
You can’t stand the sight of me
With alcohol on my breath
I’ll take any chance I get
and come up to your house
and arouse suspicion amongst neighbors
because this gaylord favors you
Drunk skunk I am
Highly favored you are
baptized by my scars
weirdo to your mom
you’re all on the run
from me
Drunk skunk I am
and you have your plan
I am the slime beneath your feet now
Where once were roses scented sweet, I was
Have your way with fate
have your way with hate
both like to play
but you’ve borne a sad game
I know my place now
but how could it come to be?
for when i kissed your breast
you said it best about me
I know my place now
Underneath your feet
where you long for me to sleep
I am your trash
but your heart knows better
An interlude for 2
couldn’t it be me and you?
must it always be for me, dinner for one?
can’t you and i have eyes in love, again?

Disgusted (Fuck you, tom cruise)

The greatest stance you can take against something that offends you is to walk out, depending on the scenario.
I’m leaving the movie theater now, after torturing myself trying to see a Tom Cruise movie.  He’s over the hill and too much of a celebrity to be funny in a movie.  I don’t need to see an almost 60 year old guy trying to pass for 40 in the movie, come home and fuck his wife doggie style while they have 2 small children.  Such sexual portrayals take away from the movie and always make me feel vulnerable and assaulted.  I think that natural born males feel over confident because of what they can “do to a woman sexually”, and women are never shown “doing something to a man” to elicit sexual noise from him.  So you have this one sidedness in sex, that makes the sexual act look like a war zone and the men are the power.  I think it’s this treatment of the heterosexual sexual act that pushes people like Natalie and myself, gender non-conforming persons and transgender males, to continue on as we are even more ardently.  It may be why we are as we are, or we are this way by nature but it only makes us want to be it more.  Fuck heteronormative behavior in movies and male sexual dominance.

Powerful, Vacuous, and Prayer

To Rep Gabby Giffords and her husband who stated that “Your prayers aren’t going to stop nor help the next shooting”, and all the Democratic representatives in this article who have dismissed prayer, I say to you, YOU KNOW NOT WHAT OUR PRAYERS HAVE PREVENTED FROM HAPPENING. And Rep Gabby, should no one have prayed for your healing? You’re healed now, right, and people prayed for you, I presume? And, do we say the same for Puerto Rico, all the islands, and 3rd-world countries? Prayer will never help them?

 

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