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I’m no stranger to stomping around the UN. Happy blessed birthday to Omi’s friend Elke! After a tour of the UN today, I was left perturbed and pondering. It brings back fun memories of being the child and grandchild of employees of the German Mission. I asked the tour guide what the UN does in scenarios such as Russia pummeling its gay population, given the international declaration of human rights. She told me since each country is still sovereign, the rights and ideas of the UN can only be used as suggestions, reminders, for the countries. The UN is basically a liberal federation, and the tour guides must gloss over and only explain the ideal that the UN is meant to be. I wonder why a nation should be allowed to join, when unwilling to go along with all the ideas of human rights it lays out. I also pondered, since the UN marks the Holocaust rather as its catalyst, and speaks of the Rwandan Genocide which occurred later, what have they to say about Turkey’s membership, and this growing knowledge of a pre-Holocaust genocide geared towards Armenians, inflicted by Turks. How do they face that? Is it of any consequence?Germany is not a permanent seated member of the UN, and that is to be expected since when the UN was founded, Germany was considered the vile and defeated enemy. You could expect years of fighting to become the 6th permanent member, amongst the ranks of the US, Russia, France, Great Britain, and China, but to no avail. But seriously, in this day and age, a federation of peace allowing perilous China still to be a permanent member, but not Deutschland?

The UN is a highly dressed up dream. But you can wonder what the world might be like if it didn’t exist.

Disgusted (Fuck you, tom cruise)

The greatest stance you can take against something that offends you is to walk out, depending on the scenario.
I’m leaving the movie theater now, after torturing myself trying to see a Tom Cruise movie.  He’s over the hill and too much of a celebrity to be funny in a movie.  I don’t need to see an almost 60 year old guy trying to pass for 40 in the movie, come home and fuck his wife doggie style while they have 2 small children.  Such sexual portrayals take away from the movie and always make me feel vulnerable and assaulted.  I think that natural born males feel over confident because of what they can “do to a woman sexually”, and women are never shown “doing something to a man” to elicit sexual noise from him.  So you have this one sidedness in sex, that makes the sexual act look like a war zone and the men are the power.  I think it’s this treatment of the heterosexual sexual act that pushes people like Natalie and myself, gender non-conforming persons and transgender males, to continue on as we are even more ardently.  It may be why we are as we are, or we are this way by nature but it only makes us want to be it more.  Fuck heteronormative behavior in movies and male sexual dominance.

That Gilmore Thang

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Oh God, the reboot!  May I just talk about this before I go to bed?  10 years later have taught me just how annoying fast-paced seemingly witty banter, super-charged by coffee, really is.  Dear God was my first impression as episode 1 opened up.  Incessant remarks on how “Gee, what a great kid you’ve got there!”, as in Rory.  Now, 10 years ago, who one and only true beau, wanted her to move out with him to California, start a life together, and be married.  Rory turned him down for The New York Times, and Logan said, well, this is the end, then.  So, you’d think he actually has some sensitivity and desire for a put-together, life of love.  You’d think.  He loved her.  Truly.

Then, fast forward 10 years and you find a whole new world.  You find that 10 years have not brought growth, but rather a regression.  They have a secret love affair, whilst Rory, now living in Lpondon, maintains a boyfriend in the States.  “What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas until you leave Vegas and forget about what happened, only to return to Vegas and remember again”, Rory states.  So, a regression in love and being loving?  The 2, once destined for marriage, make love less in their exploits, they lessen love.  Loveless.  And, this is all in episode 1.  I opened episode 2, and I shall have to leave it there.  This show was once rated as the top positive influential show for teens.  No longer.  Goodbye Gilmores, ’twas nice naively knowing you 10 years ago.  no-coffee

Ice Cream!

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penny-licklogo    Kudos to owner Ellen Sledge, for her upbeat charm, and creating such a friendly and welcoming atmosphere.  Today I had the pleasure of visiting the cleverly-named Penny Lick Ice Cream parlor in Hastings-on-Hudson, NY.  Believe me, there were quite a few treats I wish I could have taken home to Ossining, but they’d certainly have melted by the time I got home.  This establishment definitely prides itself on not being TOO out there with its flavors, and is a simple but large shop, canvassed with photos by her neighbor, and a party room in the back for kids, decorated by a painter-friend of the owner.  Additionally, while the shop does offer two flavors containing nuts, it prides itself on being a pretty good safe-haven for children with such allergies.

As soon as I walked in, I was greeted with a very kind and chipper demeanor by Ellen.  I asked if I could sample a few flavors, and she remarked “Of course you can; it wouldn’t be fun or an ice cream shop if you couldn’t sample as many flavors as you liked!”.  🙂  I also was immediately given “the grand tour”, and saw the area right behind the counter, where the ice cream is made fresh every day.  How awesome, that everything is made right there!  For my part, I sampled Honey Graham, Mint Chocolate Chip (which was still all soft and swirly, having recently been made) and one other which sadly, I cannot remember :(.  Sorry, folks.  Admittedly, I found Honey Graham to be a little too sweet, but still tasty.  Ellen explained to me that the Mint Chocolate Chip is made in a style of stracciatella.

Now, for the freezer, which offered some ice cream pops, fruit-flavored amongst them, vegan offerings, and a nutella ice cream bar.  Yummmmmm.  I wound up walking out being a little typical, with a double-scoop of cookies and cream in a sugar cone, but very happy.  Being custard-based, I felt a delightful smoothness upon my lips after I devoured my cooling treat.  Like freon to my system on such a hot day.  I highly recommend visiting Penny Lick!  If I doled out stars, I’d give it 10!  Listen, I told Ellen her hair was awesome, and we became fast friends; that’s all there is to it.  Just kidding.  Bon Apetit!

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Fashion, Theatre, People, Feelings

Yesterday, I had the pleasure of visiting the Metropolitan Museum of Art and visiting both the Vigee LeBrun exhibition, the female 18th century French painter, as well as the Manus + Machina exhibition.  What I will mention here more so, is the latter.

The purpose of Manus + Machina is essentially to show the juxtaposition between what clothing can be when handmade, versus when made by by machine.  It can even become a machine, who knew!  I came away from the exhibition with the knowledge of a dress that puts YOU on, a dress that is remote-controlled to reveal its frilly backside, and a dress that goes up to your face and rather obstructs your vision.  The thought came to me that, you would have thought that in the era when it was not easy to mass produce, there would be… less.  Perhaps clothing would be more immodest, and in an era now of such richness, we would drape more, we have more at our disposal.  Yes, our present is so rich, and yet we do nothing but drag the person down, particularly women, when it comes to fashion.  We put them down with immodesty.  In steps theatre/film/media.

In fashion and in theatre, you cant ever really get to the core of anything, because it’s all the product of someone’s angst always and their own perspective, so it points to the fact that there is objective truth.  But someone will throw this at me and say to me who are you to define truth?  Well, the very nature of fashion, that all this stuff stems from someone’s angst and you can’t ever get to the root of anything.  ‘Tis why we go round and round in circles, watching the same things all the time, wearing the same things all the time.

Carol…

carol1I will say that last night I had the privilege of seeing the movie, Carol; I call it a privilege because of the fact that it is one of very few queer-geared movies out there that does not end in overly dramatic, does not involve, heart-breaking/wrenching, depressing tragedy.  It was a film of beautiful cinematography, sincere wanting and longing, and just…  I’ll say it again: nice film stills to look at!

While lacking in the overly dramatic, it did have that, but in a different way.  I admit that throughout the film I found myself laughing at points that might seem inappropriate, and that was a lot of points!  But, therein lies the intrigue.  What first set off the giggles in me was seeing the main character Carol, played by Cate Blanchett, being so overtly flirty in the department store where her “eventual” interest works.  It was so in your face that you would be quite dense to not know this woman was flirting with you!  Cate Blanchett, remembering her regal portayals of Queen Elizabeth I, was transformed into a slightly swollen, somewhat mannish and stern housewife; it was quite interesting to see her in this light, and I certainly was not used to it.  So, I suppose what I’m getting at is the degree of melodrama in the flirtation.  Now, what is also interesting is the degree of juxtaposition in the film.  While her flirting with the other main character, Therese, played charmingly and refreshingly sweetly/innocently by Rooney Mara, was so overdone, what was quite fascinating was that the movie draaaaaaaged out the climax of their union, the two characters coming together in love.  It is true that these two barely had a real conversation before falling in love, but I suppose that’s left to us to decipher, through “who knows what they talked about in their incessant car rides across the country?”.  My friends and I discussed all this last night afterwards; it was great fun.

The other interesting aspect was, when they first met, the mousy Therese in the department store, trying to help Carol pick out a Christmas present for her 4-year old daughter, tells Carol that as a 4-year old girl, she wanted a train set.  I was unsure whether this was a jab at stereotyping, trying to show “oh of course one of the partners has to have ‘boyish tendencies'”, or if it really was just trying to break down a gender stereotype.

A moment that really stuck out to me, was that when Carol and Therese could no longer maintain contact for a period of time, Therese called her once from her poorly flat, trying in vain to reach her; Carol answers but hangs up, and you can’t help but FEEL as Therese says into the phone repeatedly after being hung up on “Carol, I miss you.  I miss you.  I miss you.”.  In that scene, I knew that Carol was the perfect name for this character.  Somehow, that name just jumped out, stood out to me tremendously!   This aside, the phone call was a certain show of the beautiful sincerity of the film.  Another scene which showcased this, short as it was, was on Therese’s drive back home to New York City, she has to get out of the car at one point, and vomits.  You know that she is entirely heart-sick, from the letter of good-bye that Carol sends to her, as she has by this point returned home to fight for custody of her daughter.

This movie was sewn together beautifully: each scene sewn together sweetly, through thoughtfully written music for the film, and again, the cinematography, along with scenes and events I described above.  It is true, that the movie deflects the realities of the hardships these women REALLY would have faced during the time period in which it was set, but I think its purpose was simply to portray love, and perhaps did not set out to be a straightforward LGBT type of film.  Yes, I laughed at many scenes; they first get in contact because Carol happens to leave her gloves on the counter in the department store, and Therese, immediately and confusingly taken with Carol, steadfastly makes sure to mail them to her.  For the ending, I joked that perhaps Therese went to meet her at that party after all, because Carol simply left her gloves behind once again.  But, no joke, this movie is dope!  The closer you get to something that is troubling and different from you, the more empathy you will feel for the people who struggle.  I so enjoyed its ending, open to interpretation, but you pretty much are secured in the direction for which things will go for the characters.  Beautiful and truly moving.  Did I mention this movie is dope?  🙂

And now an addendum…  I confess I just returned from seeing the movie a second time.  What I forgot to mention initially is the very first opening scene of the film; you see at first something that appears to be a gate/bars/grill, something very trapping in style; in my eyes, a toss at the very premise of the movie: that this is about a gay couple and they are not free.  It’s quite interesting what you come back with when you view something a second time, isn’t it?  I’m not someone who watches a lot of movies, so for me to have viewed it twice, says something.  What I came back with was sadness over the very concept of the actor.  Often, roles are just toss-away, unimportant, and stupid roles.  However, sometimes, there’s a role that is sweet and innocent, pure of heart, intelligent, etc.  And I thought, how sad, because I saw Rooney Mara at the Gold Globes last night, and I thought, if only she could learn from the character she portrayed; if only a little bit of that innocence rubbed off on her.  But, sadly, what I noticed is that the artistry of the actor is incomplete; they merely take on a role, learn its parts, and then toss it away when the film is finished.  How sad is this?  I will also say, that Therese, in saying “Yes” to everything all the time, really reveals how, when a person is that way, in many respects you can’t trust them; their desires are wishy washy, when someone merely says yes to everything.

The movie even triumphed over the book.  In the book, when Therese asks, “Isn’t it better than sleeping with a man?”, sadly, book Carol replies, “Not necessarily…”.  That’s a real let down and I wonder if such lines might be used by women who are bisexual to “get back” at gay women in some way.  Movie Carol is a triumph over book Carol; in the movie, the characters are truly gay, truly just long to be with a woman and have been trapped, lost, however you want to put it, all their lives.  I appreciate too, that the movie did this; usually one does not prefer deviations from the original story, but given the topic, I think it can certainly be applauded for certain reasons.  Also, in the book, Carol is only about 10 years older than Therese, and has a daughter about 8 years old, making her to have had a child at around the age of 22.  Carols speaks of her married life with summers spent in Italy and France, etc, as though this all were some great compliment.  Again, another thing to be glad about, that this movie “came out” and made movie Carol who she is: a bit softer, gentler, more thoughtful.   Still, the fact that Therese is named Therese, gives me hope for the book, in spite of the “erroneous” nature of the author I’ll refer to it as, for Therese was the patron saint of the elementary school I attended.

I suppose this is has become a small juxtaposition of the movie versus the book.  I am not a great fan of film in general, which is why this movie has conjured up so many thoughts.  Although I am gay, the book made me question the depth of same-sex love.  In the book, when Carol leaves Therese to return to New York to fight for custody of her daughter Rindy, the book seems to frame everything as very linear: that Carol has said she promised to not see Therese anymore, because clearly, she loves her daughter more than she loves Therese.  You start to believe that to be true, and think that is the author’s absolute sentiment, and that there is no way around it.  If you’re a gay person, who was once in a heterosexual relationship that bore a child, and you now had a same-sex partner you were deeply in love with, but were threatened with never seeing your child again because of it, what would you do?  Indeed, the book shows us that there is in fact a way around it; Carol DID love Therese truly, both she and her daughter equally.  She simply gave up fighting in court; she was courageous, did what she had to do in order to remain with Therese, in a way that still enabled her to see her daughter, though much less frequently.  Book Carol IS indeed brave.  In the movie however, Carol’s love for Therese is really never questioned, is direct, and the “actions” merely have to be put on hold for a while.

All in all, still a dope film and story.

 

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Like Clockwork

Ah ha!

Ah ha!

photo 1On Friday, I made a trip over to Clockwork Records, in Hastings, NY.  As far as I know, there are no other vinyl-exclusive shops in Westchester County, and I had one thing in mind:  I was on the hunt for any kind of vinyl from my favorite band, The Organ.  I didn’t really think they would have anything, and I was right, they didn’t.  Still, it was fun to check out; I didn’t expect it to be tucked away into such a tiny corner though.

If you don't gots yo'self a means to play yo' records...

If you don’t gots yo’self a means to play yo’ records…

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expected, the walls were painted orange, and one wall was lined entirely with albums.  They had plenty of New Wave to choose from, which is cool for me, and also, a lot of Nirvana, and some OLD Soundgarden.  Of course, the place was overrun by mainly by all things 60s-70s, which isnt exactly my thing.  Still, I was assisted by a friendly chap named Orion (like the constellation, he told me), as I scoured the land, or, crates, rather, and as I was leaving, I met the owner Mike, who promised to  get an album by The Organ for me, if he could find it.  While I was not overcome with excitement about the place, it certainly is worth anyone’s while to check out, if you live in the area and just really love anything in the rock genre.

I never go to Hastings, so I found other things, too...

I never go to Hastings, so I found other things, too…

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Wow, jewelry AND driving lessons

Wow, jewelry AND driving lessons

Thanks for letting me visit, Hastings!

Thanks for letting me visit, Hastings!